We walked beneath the flowered trellis, shoulder to shoulder. The sunlight, bright but soft, illuminated everything. It glowed softly as it soaked into my skin, enveloping my arms, legs and torso.
Myriads of different flowers hung from the trellis, begging me to hold them and take in their unique fragrance.I approached a bright red, heart shaped flower and cupped it in my hands. In this garden there was no need to rush. I couldn’t understand why I hadn’t thought to come here earlier.
Although my plans and thoughts weighed heavily on me they were brushed away with each inhale and exhale. My companion stopped beside me. “Daughter.” His voice boomed like many rushing waters. It was deep, quenching the untamed fears hiding within me, eradicating anxiety. I turned slowly and met his intoxicating gaze. Oh, those eyes. Like blazing emeralds, set aflame by love itself. I released the flower and paid full attention.
“My Precious One, look and see”. He swept his robed arm towards the fields of flowers that lay beyond us.
“I made these for you. Each one is very special, very specifically designed for you in every challenge and season you may face.” My heart dropped a little. He knew. My gaze dropped to the cobblestone pathway beneath us. He gently lifted my chin with his finger. “My daughter. I will always provide everything you could ever need. Don’t run to broken cisterns. You will never be filled.”
“I’m so sorry Father. I have run to accomplishments instead of into Your arms. My Abba, there is no one like You.”
Those brilliant eyes flashed. “You are forgiven. Remember, my love is unconditional. It doesn’t change based on circumstances. No matter what you run to I will always be here, waiting. Until the end, I will always wait Katie.”
My cheeks started to burn. Tears fell from my face and towards the cobblestone. I closed my eyes then opened them. There was His hand, wet with my tears, waiting for the next one to drop.
“Every part of you is precious to me Katie.” This revelation released a fresh onslaught of tears.
Choked with emotion I croaked. “Please help me remember that Abba.” He smiled widely.
“Of course I will my Girl. Of course.”
This piece was written after I asked God to reveal more of Himself to me. As usual, He answered and did it very well. Of course, He pinpointed who He was amid my situation. He didn’t shove my weakness in my face. Instead, He showed me His abundant strength in comparison to my failings.
May we remember who He is whenever we try running to other comforts instead of Him. May we remember that He will never hesitate to take us back in His loving arms. Because that’s the God He is <3