After talking to a couple friends who struggle with the same thoughts as I do I realized we are all the same in so many ways. In light of this, I have started writing a series of excerpts about personal things. In these writings, I hope to encapsulate life as a Christian millennial and the challenges that can arise from it.
My speaking is in normal font. The things I hear God gently whisper as I write and re-read are typed in italics. I hope you enjoy. Please, feel free to leave a comment or drop me a line! We’re in this together <3
My heart feels empty.
I have been doing well in school, with friendships, and in my writing. Despite all these things I feel as though a void has settled over my soul.
It’s weird… how when a person has everything they could ever need and they only want more.
God, I have a feeling that I will always be striving for the next best thing if I don’t find my contentment in Your Love alone. Isn’t this the truth of everyone? Why do we put our focus on striving to reach higher when in reality You are the ONLY one who brings perfect peace? How do we come by this perfect peace in our day to day Daddy? Sometimes it feels like You’ve tossed the peace midfield and I’ve missed it… completely missed it. Have I completely missed it?
You haven’t My Daughter… just come to Me when you are weary. I will give you rest. I will always give you rest.
Father, it hurts my heart to see how many people do not know You and Your incredible love for them. As much as it breaks now, I want it to hurt even more. If my heart is pained in greater measure perhaps it will work to illicit change.
Right now I find catch myself embracing apathy. Arg! What’s up with that?
I have been too caught up in myself and self-preservation. Father, I would like to ask for forgiveness for this. Never was this life supposed to be about me. Ever. Why do I always make it about me Lord?
Keep casting your cares on me My Daughter, My precious Gem.
Really, how are we ever going to show people how passionate You are for them when I am consumed with myself? God, please teach me boundaries because there needs to be a time and a place for peace, quiet, and self-reflection as well.
Before You break my heart would You please fill it with Your incredible peace and joy? Abba, I really miss feeling the peace and joy that come from resting in Your arms solely.
I need to remember that people will never make me happy, no matter what. God, I want to feel Your passion rush over me like a giant tidal wave. I want to be so filled with your incredible joy that I overflow onto everyone else around me. I don’t want to fear the opinions of people or myself. Would you please help me?
Yes. Yes. Yes.
Would You please show people Your perfect love through the way I love those around me, especially those closest to me? Please! I need extra help with this as sometimes they are the most challenging ones to love unconditionally. I wonder why that is…
I may not always receive the answers from You right away. I may not always feel like I have it figured out and that is okay. I know that You’re here to walk the journey with me. With You, my God, I am never alone. You will fill my heart with your peace and strength. You are my Comfort and Provider.
I love you Katie…my brave, beautiful, girl.
When the world says I am not good enough I will choose to give those lies to You Father. You have created me with a purpose. You have a plan for my life. As it is Your nature to give and give and give I acknowledge that You have extraordinary plans for the lives of all reading this <3 You give purpose. You give life. You are perfect and beautiful beyond measure.
You’re amazing, Daddy I love You.
Your Beloved Princess