I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me.
Marie emerges from the change room stall pinching her sides. “I can’t believe how much weight I’ve packed on since Christmas. This is gross.”
I peel my eyes off the poster of the near-naked Victoria Secret model beside the mirror and study my friend. I am at least four sizes heavier than her and she thinks she’s too big? I tuck the thought away and divert my attention back to my friend, who is clearly distressed.
“You look great to me.”
She spins from the mirror, eyes wide. “Kate, are you kidding me?” “This” she pinches her sides, harder this time, “is disgusting.”
I wrap my arms around my body. “Uh.”
She breaks her gaze with the glass, rolls her eyes and snatches a wispy, yellow shirt off its hanger. “Maybe the yellow shirt will work.” I flinch as the door slams behind her.
A couple minutes later, Marie’s voice, loud and shrill, whines over the door separating us. “Whatever! I give up. What I really need is a gym pass.”
I don’t respond this time but study myself in the mirror more thoroughly. If she thinks she’s unlovable, what does that make me? I smooth my frizzy hair, cross my arms and sink into the wall, wanting nothing more than to melt into the white walls.
It’s hard to remember we’re not a part of the world’s way of thinking when we’re surrounded by the world’s way of thinking.
Remember, when Christ died, the lies everyone else believes died too. Because you’ve given your life to Him, the way the world thinks does not hold any power over you, unless you give it that power.
Christ’s power and strength lives in you.
If you’re ever feeling like Kate in the excerpt, take a trip to the bathroom, lock yourself in a stall and have a chat with Jesus. Being away from others may help you focus on what you’re saying to Jesus and get your eyes away from all the ads and eyes of others.
My conversations with Him have gone a little like this:
“Lord, I don’t feel good about myself right now. Would you please give me strength to see me the way you see me. Please show me one thing about me that you love.”
If you can’t hit up a bathroom at the mall, take a moment to replace the lies you’re hearing with this truth:
“I am fearfully and wonderfully made by the Creator. I don’t conform to society’s definition of beauty.”
Keep repeating it even if you don’t believe it. If you’re with a friend you trust, ask that friend to stop and pray your heart will be receptive to the truth.
Even if you feel ensnared to the world’s ways of thinking, here’s the truth: YOU ARE FREE. You are not held in bondage to lies about your worth.
Choose to believe the truth, “He made you just as He wanted to. There is no flaw in you. God has a purpose for you, as you are.”
He loves you and has SO MUCH FREEDOM waiting… way more than you could imagine <3 Trust me! You, the King’s Daughter, just need to believe it and repeat it.