I remember sitting on the hospital bed, staring at my twiggy legs, wondering if God was playing a trick on me. Did He care enough to fix my broken mind?
While the answer is a resounding “yes”, there have been moments in my Christian walk where I have wondered about the goodness of God.
Recently, for example:
This past month, I have been experiencing a lot of pain in my neck and back. It drains me of my energy, zaps my ability to work on projects and makes me downright irritable to those I love most. As a result, I have walked in guilt, thus making me more horrible to be around.
With no relief in sight, I have wondered about God’s care for me.
Questions like: “If God is so good, why hasn’t He taken away the pain” and “why are my struggles still here?” inundated me with uncertainty. Maybe Jesus had those same questions when He hung on the cross, bloodied and fractured.
When spending time with Jesus yesterday, something was made very clear:
He is making purpose of the pain. Through it, He is calling me deeper into His embrace.
When I am knocked out on my bed, trying to breathe I call to my Jesus. I have no one but Him. He ALWAYS meets me, fills me with peace and wraps me in a giant hug. Because of His presence, I am starting to deeply, intimately understand and care about the grievances of those who live with pain chronically.
Through the Savior’s embrace, I find great compassion and am compelled to help those who suffer.
Case and point:
Jesus cares about your hardships. Despise the pain you may be feeling, He is SOOO good. He is going to turn that pain into a beautiful story of redemption for others. They are going to see His goodness through His healing power in Your life.
If you’re suffering from pain, emotionally or physically, and you haven’t been healed be persistent. Believe for God’s healing, wait on Him, ask for His perspective about what’s happening.
Praise Him for the things He has done in your life. Ask for new things and trust He is listening!
Rest in knowing you can give your requests to God. He is just and faithful to answer you. Even if you don’t receive healing right away, accept that He is doing something good.
His way is going to be way better than anything you could have ever imagined, even if the pain remains for a season. Embrace the Healer, lean deeply into His strong arms and release the pain you’ve been holding.
He is more than happy to shoulder it for you, His Beloved Child.