When I scramble and stress, trying to be the best it freaking drains me. When I chose to not pause and see what You see in me, it paralyzes me. When I stayed worried about the scary drive ahead, I wasn’t trusting that You, Father, would protect me. Instead, I buried myself in endless streams of newsfeeds and Youtube videos. It never works.
Despite my foolish choices, You stand beside me with Your strong hand on my shoulder and You said, “Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.”
The moment You showed me my passion but I took the route that made money instead I did so because I didn’t think you would provide for me. You didn’t reprimand me. Instead, You led me to my office window, twisted open the curtains and gently lifted my chin to look at one of the chubby robins. “Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?”
When I allowed hopelessness in my situation to consume me, it’s because I didn’t believe You would ever get me out of my mess. You looked me in the eye with that wild yet gentle gaze of Yours, Your strong hand on your sword. “The LORD your God is in your midst, A victorious warrior He will exult over you with joy, He will be quiet in His love, He will rejoice over you with shouts of joy.”
When I was super worried about putting on a bathing suit because of what people would think, I wasn’t remembering that were the One Who made me and You do all things perfectly. You pulled me into your lap, held me tenderly and stroked my hair. You reminded me of the fact that You made me perfectly. I recited what you have said to me thousands upon thousands of times. “I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.” You always smile so wide when I say those words. It always makes me grin and laugh too.
After giving You my fears and worries I sit in Your cloud of great peace, remembering the truths You have spoken over me, over us. Father, today I choose to give the things that cause anxiety and give them to You. Today, and tomorrow and the next for the rest of my life I will speak truth to the situation and not let my feelings get in the way of Who You are.
I love you into eternity Dad.