Many of us struggle with loving the way our bodies look.
I get it. Believe me.
For a little context, I struggled with anorexia and bulimia for four years. I did not like how I looked, in the slightest.
Although I won that war years ago, I continued to battle with insecurities.
If you were to enter my bedroom a year ago you would see a cream-rimmed mirror. On that mirror is a sticky note that reads, “I do not conform to society’s standards of beauty because I am royalty, I am the King’s daughter.”
While I appreciated that it was there, it didn’t stop me from picking myself apart.
Instead of stopping and focusing on the truth of the statement I would slide into a form-fitting shirt, catch a glimpse of my bubble stomach and groan. In a matter of seconds, I would let my mind enter into thoughts: “that chub makes me less valuable.”
I allowed thoughts like this run through my mind and take full control of my view of myself.
For many, this practice has become routine.
But just because you feel a certain way doesn’t mean what you feel is truth.
It came to a point when I realized fighting against my God-given features and hating my body wasn’t getting me anywhere. I wanted FULL, TOTAL, COMPLETE freedom from these mindsets.
So I studied.
In my study, I learned: God’s Word tells us that it is as sharp as a two-edged sword and powerful enough to change mindsets.
I started speaking the truth, God’s Word, whenever a negative thought about myself would rear its ugly head.
After a time, this practice changed the way I see myself and others.
My friend, if you struggle the same way I did, I would be honoured if you followed along on the journey.
Every week, for five months I am going to give you the ammunition you need to take down the enemies lies. I will take a verse and extrapolate on its truth.
When a lie comes against you, speak the truth you have learned in its place.
Lie: I’m not thin enough.
Truth: God made me just the way He wanted me.
Keep repeating that truth over yourself even when you don’t feel like it.
Every Monday, I will post a new verse to focus on.
James 4:6, God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble.”
In this passage, the word “GRACE” stands out to me.
This growth in favor isn’t something we work for. Just like Samuel, as a child experienced the Lord’s unmerited favour so do we. To obtain grace, all we need to do to experience grace is acknowledge that we are lacking in an area and ask the Lord for help.
In other words, when I am about to fall into the entrapment of letting an extra five extra pounds define me, I choose to acknowledge my weakness and receive His grace instead.
I acknowledge that His grace is enough to lift me from those feelings of despair. In His perfect love, He is showing me how to fly free from my destructive thought patterns and habits.
God created worlds with His words and we do the same every day. “The Conversation” piece is what I used to acknowledge weaknesses to God and surrender them to Him. Being vulnerable with Him was a huge step in my healing.
Feel free to follow in suit:
“Father, I am having trouble not thinking about myself in a negative way. I admit that this is a pattern I have ingrained in my mind from years of believing wrong things and putting my worth in my looks. I accept Your grace to see myself the way you see me: not chubby, not mangled but flawless. God, I choose to not conform to the way the world sees worth. Please help me believe the truth that I am worth than my looks. You’ll never fail me. I know it.”
In Jesus’ beautiful name, Amen.