You do it. I do it. We all do it.
Yup, we worry about things. Most of us worry about everything. Some of us forget this tiny, yet extremely profound verse and the power behind it:
1 Peter 5:7 – “Cast all your cares on God for He cares for you.”
Four years ago, I wanted a man. Three years ago, I desperately needed money. Two years ago, I needed a breakthrough with family members who drove me to the brink of wanting to jump off a cliff onto a giant bed of spikes. One year ago, I needed extreme healing for my twisted back my ever volatile emotions and the stress eating away at my heart. At this moment, I need to know what I’m going to do with my life. Or do I?
Did I really NEED to know any of those pieces of my life? Maybe not, but… yeah, I really REALLY NEEDED God to come through on my request.
Or so I thought. Instead, He taught me lessons that were even more valuable than the gift I was looking to receive.
As I mentioned earlier, I wanted a man (with really attractive forearms… don’t worry about context). I begged and pleaded with God that He would send the right person sooner than later. It took some time for God to give me exactly what I had prayed for… about four years, which in retrospect, isn’t that long but it felt long to me!
Yes, I was so blessed to be married. But I learned after Alex and I were married that the reason we worked so well was because of the relationship with Jesus I had cultivated while waiting for my husband. Because I have been given that four years of waiting time with the Lord I knew that only God could complete me. I knew that I wasn’t alone. I knew that I was loved by the Creator of all no matter what trouble the hubs and I were facing.
I was overwhelmed by God’s goodness. He had shown me that my development with Him was key. My maturity was worth waiting for.
Now for God’s provision in money… hmmm. This is a popular and super unpopular topic with most people. When I “needed” money what I really needed was to learn to trust that God would provide for me. Don’t get me wrong, there’s a time and place for investments, making wise choices and saving but there’s also a place God takes us to so we learn about His care and desire to provide for us.
Three summers ago I was begging God to let me stay in Lethbridge over the summer. I didn’t want to go home as it wasn’t a good place for me emotionally but I needed a well paying job to stay. I surrendered my deep fears to Him. Ultimately He landed me in a job I enjoyed more than any other position I have ever held. I haven’t had to take a loan out to pay for school and have never been unsure of my future in that department. This was not my doing, this was God providing for me after I asked Him to.
Physical pain…well, my back, and emotions are still things I am fighting with. I am still unsure as to what my future career will look like; however, I do have a feeling all three are connected. The chronic pain I have experienced for the past two years has deepened my empathy for others significantly. It has allowed me to connect with many different people. It has made me appreciate the brevity of life and the fragility of the human body.
Ultimately, and most importantly, I learned from the waiting period that my greatest need wasn’t what I was asking for. What I was in desperate need for were the lessons about God’s character and my heart. I learned all of them through waiting, waiting, waiting then experiencing His goodness.
I am worth waiting for, and so are you.